Friday, December 01, 2006
yes! i was disappointed. because since mon, i went to sch. u din talked to miie. though, on mon i did talked to u during micro tutorial. i was feelin strange when i saw u walked away wif sylvonne they all for lunch. normally, u wuld wait for miie to pack up. n i tot maybe we will meet in canteen 1. but sad to say, der were no space for miie, ji quan n jia qing. so nvm. went to lecture hall. again. i tot u wuld sit beside miie during lecture. but instead u sat beside sylvonne. so i din even noe wat's happenin. yes. i was frustrated. cuz inside miie, thousands of thoughts went through my mind. i was thinkin abt e reason y u din wanna talk to miie. n i did tot of e reason beacuse u wanna forget miie. i couldnt concentrate on e lecture. though i was talking down notes. but i'm not understandin anything. i got worked up. y? because, i was all alone. so lonely in lectures or even tutorial. no one to talk to miie. no one to teach miie things tt i dun understand. or maybe i was too dependent on u in sch. tt's y. everyone seems to act tis way. whenever we cant be couples, it's always = to cant be frens. tt's explain y tt time i did put my msn nick as cant be couples = cant be frens?? cuz i reali hate it. wei xuan, clement, seb n alot more. all acted e same way. i'm reali sick n tired of it. n i tot u will be e 10th one tt will stand by miie n be my bestie even though we cant be couple. share my probs wif miie. nevertheless. u din.. even though, i was wif ji quan n jia qing. i dun lye. cuz i dun reali lye dem. as u shld noe it. but i dun wanna fell too lonely. whenever i saw u n sylvonne they all laughing. i'm jus wondering y tis could happen to miie. cuz past 4 days i din noe e reason. it's until today. till sylvonne told miie e truth. den i realise it. i wun be scoldin u. cuz i noe u felt miserable too. n pls pls dun booze too much. it's not gd for health. as a fren, i dun wanna see u feelin tis way. i'm sorri. sorri tt i given u e wrong impression tt u hv e chance. i'm beri sorri.
thx for confessing tt u had e urge to sit beside mie during lectures. but i guess i'll jus gib u time to forget abt miie bahx. though i reali dun wan tis to happen. esp our common test ish comin liao. as for tml's IS class. it's fine if u wanna dance wif sylvonne. i can dance wif rachel though. if u wan it tt way, i'm fine wif it. n i think u had misunderstood miie. yes, i was pissed off. tt was e past 4 days when u din even wanna talk to miie. but aft i noe e reason, den i realised it. alright, perhaps i din take ur feelings into consideration bahx.
n i reali missed e times when we actually crap during lectures n tutorial when it gets real bored. but well, everything ish in e past liao. shall hope everything ish fine. haix. i reali dun wan things to turn tis way. but i'll still gib u time. so when u reali got over miie liao, den u try n talk to miie bahx. wun force u into difficult situation de. so dun worry. n right now, in class. i wun talk to u first bahx. till u approach miie liao. den i'll start talkin to u.
anw, take care lots n jus wanna let u noe i reali treasure u as my beri beri gd n close fren in sch. so i hope nth will happen to u. once again, rem dun drink too much le. actually, i wanted to study wif u for all e tests tt's comin up de. but well, i din expect things will turn out tis way. so nvm liao bahx. anw, good luck for ur common tests tt ish comin up soon.
ilu4ever @ 12:23 AM